August 01, 2007, 9:30 a.m. I had these dream that I have found all the things that I need. The necklace, the book, the medallion, the speels and chants, and etc. There is a house which it has a secret hide out. Where it has 2 floors and under the stairs is the so called hide-out or the secret passage. I don't know but one thing is that my uncle is there the uncle that I really hate of. Don't know who's house it is but still I know I've been there before.
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July 29, 2007, 6:45 am Yesterday I was so happy because I can see that he is changing for good. I mean my boyfriend, his giving me the time that I want. He even bought me a teddy bear, t-shirt and we even ate at greenwich. But there is always a exchange for the happiness that I received. I wonder if his mad or what. The one that meant to be mine. I know it's weird because I'm the one who is giving him a space. Why? Because I know he will fall for someone else. Don't know when but I know he will. To a girl that has the same attitude, personality that I have. And he will loss all of his memory of me. Sad to say I already give him a clue yet I'm also trying my best to give him what I can. How I wish they can give us a time. More time to be with each other. Until the girl was completely awaken.
July 26, 2007, 7:01 am I woke up with a strange dream. It shows me that I need to use these symbol to call for someone else. Or it may also mean that in my dream I am calling someone else using these symbol. Ahh so confuse why am I having these type of dreams. Eniwei it's time for me to prepare for school.
July 25, 2007, 5:56 a.m. Mowning to everyone. I was so drain yesterday I slept all day yet till now I'm so sleepy. I'm having a headache don't know why. And now I'm doing our project in Visual Basic, I hope I can finish this on time. I wish you will also gain the energy you need okay. By the way, I had this dream I know I can't tell you this right now yet I hope someday you will read it. To help and guide me. This dream is all about finding a medallion. A medallion which it has a star. The symbol of pentagram. I believed that it is mine. Yet someone is holding it right now and yet he doesn't want to give it back to me. The medallion can control the 9 guardians and if he learn how to use it. He will use it against me. So he will be the only one who can control them. Only one owner at one time. That's all just sharing don't know what it means.
July 23, 2007, 08:35 p.m. Been with you in five days and that days make my life complete. Yet there are things that I can't understand. Do you believe in supernatural?? Me I don't want to believe on the stuff like that but still it let me show the proof that are things like that. Then everything is connecting on me and everyone arounds me. First about the un-natural things that I can see and feel. I can't explain what they are yet now through your help I already understand why I can see and feel them. But why? I didn't notice it. You know all that stuff because you are also experiencing it. Now you telling the truth I have decided to connect eveything that happened to both of us. And in my surprise it really has a connection A connection which is connected on our past and also in the present. Now knowing all the things that i must not know I am in a big problem. Because I have no choice but to do the things that are meant to be happen. It's me who will give a big p
July 19, 2007, 10:34 a.m. I just came home from yesterday gimmik. I stayed at gary's place yesterday. Asking me why? Of course I'm with some one important to me. We talked, laugh and miss each other. It's like a year that we haven't do that so I just get the chance to be with him the whole day. We been together I think 26.5 hours hehehe... Breaking the record of all the people I've been with. As I can see my problems has totally faded. But still there are cases that opens a single problem. Which will affect me soon. I just hope I'll be contented with what I have. And never regret of what I've decided.
July 18, 2007, 06:36 a.m. Morning to everyone. I'm not use to waking this early because of lack of sleep this past few weeks. But still can cope to wake up early morning just to prepare for laterz gimmik. If you will ask me, I'm bit okay now. Still confuse but yet okay. The burden that I'm carrying is fading right now. So maybe I can sleep well later. For now. I'll take a shower and prepare for my gimmik hahaha... No school today just pure gimmik. Laterz
Hate myself
Hmm.. I'm a little bit happy because you talked to me. But yet sad because your mad. Now what I'll just shut my mouth so you wont get more angry. You know I can't stand it. Hate myself... for what is happening.
July 17, 2007, 06:52 pm Being alone here in my room makes me think of you more. Even though I'm drunk. dON'T know really if I'm drunk with the beer I took or because I'm drunk with these unknown feeling. I don't know why but still I have this feeling that I can't last for another day. I don't know if you're just afraid of losing me. Or you're just ignoring me. Because even thou you don't ignore me still I'm yours. As one of my closest friend told me, If I'm sure of the one I love why don't I go for it. It looks like because I'm still not sure until when will this feeling last. It is enough to hurt myself than hurting you. But still I can't stand seeing you forcing yourself to leave me. This afternoon I really cried. Not because it is really hard or the pressure that I'm holding. But seeing you with another girl still I can't stand it. She is just not a simple girl that I can compare of. But the girl that everyone is ta
July 17, 2007, 7:55 am Bakit kailangan ko gumising pa ulit ng alam ko naman na pag sisihan ko rin naman? Bakit ko pa pinipilit na gawin ang mga bagay bagay na alam ko naman alang silbi? Sa araw na ito pipilitin kong ipakita ang isang taong puno ng sigla at saya. Ngunit sa kanya puso ay nagdudusa dahil wala ka. You've been my inspiration this past few days now I feel empty, no energy to do anything because your gone. But still I want to thank you for the achievement I have done while I'm with you. You have been so helpful to me this past few days. And I wish that day never ends. Now it's time to end this thought and be ready to go to school. Laterz
July 16, 2007, 03:45 pm Why can't I have you? Why can't I continue what I have started? Why do I need to regret things which I'm the one who decided it? Why do I still think that everything is still under my control? Until when will I suffer from this? How much burden do I still need to take? And how long will you take it?
Why?
Why can't I have you? Why can't I continue what I have started? Why do I need to regret things which I'm the one who decided it? Why do I still think that everything is still under my control? Why do I need to suffer? Why do I have to be burden and still accept all the mistakes I have made?